Still really depressed.  Slept until 3 pm. watched TV, went to a Christmas performance at 7 pm. and now at 9:30 pm I'm going to bed, having been awake for far too many hours.  Ugh.  I hate my life.  Christmas break is suppose to be fun and relaxing...

I’ve been depressed and super irritable all day. I feel like I’m crawling out of my skin no matter what I’m doing. I spent a lot of money I didn’t have, went to see “Twilight” for the fourth time with Becca, and just drove around wasting gas quite a bit. I hope this doesn’t last much longer. I can’t tolerate it.

Today I’ve been racy and irritable.  Snapped at Mom a lot, drove like a maniac, couldn’t stay still and focus to save my life… I think I managed to pull off enough study time between yesterday and today to pass the exam tomorrow in Folklore & Mythology. Actually, I think I’ll do more than just pass it. I’m guessing I’ll get somewhere between a B ( Read more... )

Today I saw Laurie, which went reasonably well. I talked to her about my problems studying and she said that what I described to her was definitely a mixed episode (gracias Bipolar), but also had some serious ADD undertones to it. Solution: decrease Abilify (the culprit) from 40 mg to 20 and go see Dr. S as soon as possible for ADD testing and ( Read more... )

This should have been easy. For Mythology & Folklore we had to read The Alchemyst: The Secret of The Immortal Nicholas Flamel by Michael Scott for tomorrow. It’s a popular adolescent fantasy fiction novel - right up my alley. But did I read it? Nooo. First, I didn’t realize that the test over it is on Monday until Saturday, but still, even at 369 ( Read more... )

I’ve been thinking a lot about taking time off of school (again) after this semester is over. My last exam ends at 10:00 a.m. on Dec. 11th and I really don’t want to go back, at least not right away. I feel like I should be enjoying school, at least a little, and I’m not at all. Even though I’m only taking two courses and they’re both on topics I’m ( Read more... )

Well, my sister isn’t coming home for the weekend and I’m not going to see her at school. Boo.  I reconnected with no less than 3 old friends today (Josie, Isabel, & Amanda) through the magic of technology (the internet & cell phones). Not depressed, not manic - definitely in a mixed state. So restless I could barely get anything done. I’m crawling ( Read more... )